Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Happy Holidays

Happy Holidays Cheryl my love…..

It is hard to believe it was only last year that we were spending time with the family here in Las Vegas and your condition was stable. You were hanging out with the cousins and joking around, playing with our daughter Cevan, . To me, it seems like 16 months has been 16 years and I can’t imagine any period of my life’s existence seem that long of a span in such a short interval (I am not sure if that makes sense). I guess its analogous to the months have seemed like years.

We spent Thanksgiving with my sister Gina & Davis, Cevan, Tatai, Al & my mom, and your father and step mom in Vegas. We also went to cousin Debbie & Bong’s house with many of the other cousin’s there and Cevan played with the other kids. We were joking about that close cousin of yours (you know who you are) who was already married and didn’t tell any of us.. How we were all pressuring them to get engaged when they eloped far before that…. Such a good actor and actress.. they should get an Oscar for that performance ;) We also went to Bong & Debbie’s again for the Manny Pacquiao fight and spent time with all the Vegas side of the family. Our daughter is growing up so fast but she is definitely a tough little girl. She has a new nickname “baby Pacquiao or baby Pac” since she likes to beat up everyone (slap, scratch, and pinch). The Guamanians / Chamorros call it magodie ( I don’t know the right spelling but something pronounced like that). Its how she shows her affection…. We took her to Opportunity Village which is this spectacular setup that looks like the North Pole came to Vegas. Cevan was so enamored with all the ostentatious displays, toys, santa, lights, etc.. We couldn’t even get a picture of her looking straight at the camera and she was saying “oh wow” the whole time. I watched all the young parents with their babies and children… I have never been a jealous person but for once in my life I was. The thoughts started coming across my mind that they got to share the joys together and captivate that experience… side by side… but I know deep down that you were watching us from heaven Cheryl.


I know it’s always the holidays that are always the most difficult.. Especially when its so close to the loss of a loved one. It seems like every song on the radio reminds me of you and even Christmas songs. I receive a lot of praise from your family for all the devotion to you and they know that I did it all for you and our daughter. I just wish you had more time in this world to see her grow up. You know that I am working so hard doing so many things to make you proud.

I guess I have to share so more stories so I will. I remember the time when we took your nephew Darius (Juniors son) with your father and step mother to the Boomers miniature golf place in San Diego. You were so embarrassed because it was one of the first impressions on your father and I was like a big kid racing Darius, rock climbing, playing video games, etc.. with him. I remember you telling your father that your man is a kid at heart. I remember the times we played drinking scrabble and you would get so intoxicated that it became blatantly obvious when you were making up words. I challenged you ever chance I got to and we would bust up laughing because you were such a bad liar!!! I remember when we used to argue about things and than you would sit on the bed and rub the spot next to you like you were “warming it up for me to lay next to you”. We would start laughing because we didn’t even know what we were arguing about. I remember the day of our first date vividly. I opened the door when you arrived and my heart sunk.. I was so stunned and awestricken.. you had this effervescent glow that there are no words to describe. I have met thousands of people in my life but never felt so nervous to make the right impression. You were the most beautiful person I have ever met in my life. I tried to play it off all casual but my heart was racing. There are so many more stories to share but wanted to say Happy Holidays from your husband and daughter!!

4 comments:

Czarina Fernandez said...

Cheryl, your husband's post made me think of all the holidays Junior and I spent with you. I remember the year you gave your mom Tahitian pearls and the tissue box holder from your dogs Mauna and Kaia. The next Christmas we got gifts from Hannah and Strauss. Then, the next year we got gifts from Maka (I still have the gift from Maka and use it almost every day). It makes me miss you so much to think about those holidays.

You and Evan would always do your mom's Christmas shopping, and wrap the presents too (you were always such a thoughtful daughter). We were at your mom's house in San Jacinto for Christmas 2006 when you were searching the house for the scissors (you and Evan were wrapping presents into the wee hours of the night). You never did find them until I opened a present from your mom which was a jacket, and the scissors you were looking for. That gave us a laugh.

You would always do the cooking for the holidays. It was always something fancy you learned from watching the food network. You would always pick the perfect wine to go with our meals. Your knowledge about wines always blew me away.

Evan, Cevan and Tatay came to visit us here, in San Diego. We had such a good time with your husband and little girl. Cevan is growing so fast, and she loves to eat! She is so bright, just like her mommy. Kendal loved playing with her cousin, and they had so much fun. Like Evan said, she is a tough little girl!!

Merry Christmas, sister. We love you so much. You are ALWAYS in our thoughts, prayers, and our hearts. We miss and love you.

Michelle P said...

It was December 1997 and I was living in Hawaii. Cheryl and I always found a way to keep in touch and I vivdly remember going to her house on Christmas day because I was all alone. The friends who I was living with at the time came back home to San Diego to be with their families. Cheryl was the only ohana I had. She insisted I spend Christmas day with her and her boyfriend at the time. When I arrived at her home on Diamond Head, she was so happy to see me and I was so blessed and thankful to have such a wonderful friend in my life.

Cheryl cooked me spam handrolls and they were sooo good! We laughed, talked story and drank wine. I remember opening up her fridge while we were cooking and there were several bottles of wine chilling and Cheryl told me to pick one to drink; I was so overwhelmed, I made her choose one for me! We even managed to squeeze in nap during that day (probably from drinking too much wine!).

Cheryl as this holiday approaches, I know your spirit will be with us and you will forever be in my heart.

Happy Holidays my dear friend...A hui hou

Mel and Barry Do Europe said...

Evan asked me to post a message I sent to him on facebook on the blog. Here is what I wrote:

Hi Evan-

I wanted to write a quick note to tell you how sorry I was to hear of Cheryl's Passing. I remember when she first started dating you, she was so excited for the new chapter. You were the love of her life. I heard of Cheryls passing in November but did not know how to get in touch with the you. please know that you and your daughter are in my thoughts. I will miss Cheryls amazing personality and the light she brought to everyone she knew. The world was a better place because of Cheryl.

I know that the holidays will be hard for you and your family, know that you have a very special angel on your shoulder!

All the Best, Melissa

Mel and Barry Do Europe said...

Evan asked me to post a message I sent to him on Facebook. Here is what I wrote:

Hi Evan-

I wanted to write a quick note to tell you how sorry I was to hear of Cheryl's Passing. I remember when she first started dating you, she was so excited for the new chapter. You were the love of her life. I heard of Cheryls passing in November but did not know how to get in touch with the you. please know that you and your daughter are in my thoughts. I will miss Cheryls amazing personality and the light she brought to everyone she knew. The world was a better place because of Cheryl.

I know that the holidays will be hard for you and your family, know that you have a very special angel on your shoulder!

All the Best, Melissa